Listen

Today would be the 57th Birthday of my good friend Randy.
Sadly he died a few weeks ago after a courageous battle with cancer.
I dedicate this blog to him.
    What I learned from him....
Never ever give up! Never stop asking questions. Never assume anything.
Always smile even when you feel like crying. Live today, in this moment, and enjoy the simple things. Love with all of your heart.
 So today I woke up feeling rather yucky.. a change in the seasons promptly reminding me that this nasty bronchitis,asthma thing is my body's way of slowing me down. I am down, on the couch, aches and pain...thinking.
If I had slowed down, quit racing around and just been still perhaps I wouldn't have been forced to do so by my ever so intelligent immune system.
  Always in a hurry, get up, get dressed, hurry up and walk the dog, hurry the dog..eat faster I have to go to work...where are my keys? Did I lock the door?
Who do I need to contact today? What are my plans for tomorrow....on and on and on........EXHAUSTED!  I bet you feel the same way at times. So STOP! Right now! Be still, listen..what do you hear?  I hear the rain bouncing off the driveway..trucks on the highway.....I am Listening.
I have made myself a promise..from now on I am listening...

Whatever became of me?

Have you ever wondered "What became of me?" As children we envisioned out lives as we thought it would be based on our childhood experiences. No one ever told us about the challenges we would face.
When I was a young girl I envisioned myself as a graceful, beautiful woman surrounded by music and art and poetry. I would live in a small cottage overlooking the ocean.My days would be filled with sunlight and bird songs.Evenings by the fire with people sharing their amazing talents and stories. I would write a novel.
Somewhere between then and now I followed a  a different path....Sister,Mother,Grandmother,Nurse.
 All amazing and wonderful experiences! Now comes my time for exploration into me. Who am I? What did I love? What makes me feel joy?